Rylan Clark revealed the breakdown of his marriage after he admitted infidelity to her husband – and later attempted suicide.
The situation was so difficult that Raylan said he no longer wanted to be alive and then tried to end his life – which he is now glad he didn’t make it.
In his new book Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future, he writes: “I woke up one morning and decided to tell my ex-boyfriend that I cheated on him years ago.
“I’m not sure why that time, or that day I had to do it. But I did.”
on the reaction, RaylanHe continues, 33: “He left. He told me it was over and that was it.
“You’re not surprised? I get it. But I couldn’t believe it.”
Raylan later struggled with him Psychological health He said he would fall asleep praying “I won’t wake up” and then tried to end his life.
He says, “For the first time in 32 years, I felt like I couldn’t go on.
“‘what is the point?’ I thought. I lost what I thought was everything, the one thing I always wanted. A man I loved. A family of my own. And now he’s gone.
So I tried to finish it.
“I won’t go into details because I don’t think it’s fair to my mother, but thank God it didn’t work out.”
A wake-up call led to him being admitted to a mental hospital to aid in his recovery amid a five-month hiatus for the sake of his health.
Raylan also later suffered from heart failure and was taken to the hospital where his heart was restarted, he revealed during a book talk on Wednesday evening.
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It’s the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, and it’s more deadly than cancer and car accidents.
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Speaking of why he cheated earlier, Rylan adds, “I don’t have any excuses for what I did at the time, but I had my reasons.
“The truth is, over the course of my relationship I started to feel wrong: I felt like I was wrong for being successful, wrong for being wrong. Everyone around me was seeing that things weren’t quite right.”
Speaking at London’s Royal Festival Hall, he said: “Twice last year I ended up in the back of an ambulance because my heart failed.
“I just remember the shot went in and all of a sudden this feeling from the middle of your body, both ways, it almost took you, it just stopped and my heart stopped.
“There are only seven faces and this bright light is just looking at me. Then I took a breath. And they were like, ‘He’s in a natural rhythm.'”
I was like, ‘What’s going on f**k?’ “
Raylan He saw his heart rate rise to 248 beats per minute, well above the average of 60 to 120 beats per minute.
His friends and family initially told him it was because of his heartbreak, but he insisted it was more serious.
Rylan continued, “I knew it wasn’t right. Turns out my heart had to be restarted.
“I remember laying in Rhesus and I had all these pads with all these wires and I didn’t understand what it was.
Then I just said, ‘What’s the point of pads?’ And they said, “If you don’t take a breath…because we had to restart you electrically.”
“You don’t even think about it when you’re there. So not only did I get mentally ill, I got sick physically.”
If you are affected by any of the issues raised in this article, please contact Samaritans Free on 116123.