Safia Foraji has revealed that she would like to one day welcome another child to continue the legacy of her late daughter Azalea after her death.
The 34-year-old mother and former partner Ashley Kane lost their daughter on April 24, 2021, when she was just eight months old after a brave battle with acute myeloid leukemia.
And in an exclusive interview with MailOnline, Safiya told how she visited a broker in a desperate search for “answers” after losing, before realizing she could see another child in the future.
My Girl: Safia Foraji has revealed that she would like to one day welcome another child to continue the legacy of her late daughter Azalea after her death
Talking about launching her second collection with jewelry brand Abbott Lyon in honor of her daughter, she told the mom how she finally became open to the idea of other kids after she had previously been fiercely opposed to it – but noted that Azaylia can’t be “replacement.”
Safia – who is no longer with Azelia’s father Achille – explained: “At first it was completely out of the question, I didn’t want another child and that was because I didn’t want to feel like I was replacing Azalea because she would. It cannot be replaced.
Then I went to see a broker. I just needed answers from somewhere or something, I was just desperate, in the pit of my darkest moment.
The moderator asked me if I could see another baby, and I said “no no” right away. “I want you to know you’ll never replace an azalea, this is going to be an addition to your azalea and your azalea will love it,” she said.
New campaign: Safia talks about launching her second collection with jewelry brand Abbott Lyon in honor of her daughter
Let’s go champ: Mum, 34, and former partner Ashley Kane lost their daughter on April 24, 2021, when she was just eight months old after a battle with acute myeloid leukemia.
Safia continued: “When I heard it, he wasn’t much of a believer in the media and what my readings were, it was like what she said to me, Azaylia will never be replaced, it’s an add-plus to you. So if you have another child, it will be another plus.
The fact that she said that to me, gave me hope in thinking that I would love to have another brother or sister to Azalea. And for me, it’s clear to carry on their older sister’s legacy and be proud to be a part of something so magical to help other children and families. That would be very nice.
We can’t always direct our children to what we would like them to do. But for me, I’d love to have another baby. The beauty that Azalea showed me as a mother, filled me with such magical moments. I have seen the beauty of being a mother.
The future: Safia told how she visited a medium in a desperate search for “answers” after her loss, before realizing she could see another child in her future (pictured in Abbott Lyon’s necklace).
In the 17 months since Azaylia’s death, Safia and Ashley have continued to keep their daughter’s name alive as well as raise awareness of childhood cancer and fund their Azaylia Foundation.
However, despite her gritty face, Safia told how difficult it is for her to endure her grief on a daily basis, and admitted to telling people she is fine just to give them “comfort” that she is “adapting”.
She said: Carrying sadness with you every day is heavy, it seems that the chains are heavy on you. Until today, I found it difficult. I had to work, I cried, I went to shower, I got myself together today. I have content that I had to shoot from the brands I work with.
Our daughter: Safia – who is no longer with Azalea’s father Ashley – explained: “At first it was completely out of the question, I didn’t want another child and that’s because I didn’t want to feel like I was replacing Azalea. Because it will not be replaced
During those times, I constantly have to wear this armor every day, dealing with the day. And when I lay my head on my pillow at the end of the night, I feel so proud to have had that day.
The writer went on to say that while seeing other children sometimes excites her, she knows that the “purpose” her daughter gave her is “greater” than her pain.
She continued, ‘I probably got a lot of kicks and punches and felt bad during those days of triggers – there are huge triggers during the day.
‘It could be someone doing something so innocently like pushing the stroller, and my head started to wonder, I just wish Azaylia was still here.
‘It’s very painful.’ But, like I said before, there are days when I don’t want to be here, it’s really hard. But the goal our daughter has given me is higher and greater, and I know she is looking down.
I wish: ‘I’d like to have another brother or sister for Azalea. And for me, it’s clear to carry on their older sister’s legacy and be proud to be a part of something so magical to help other children and families. That would be so beautiful.”
Safia added that the experience of losing her daughter was “the biggest fear of her life”, but because of that she can now face anything.
She said: ‘There are a lot of things I would not have encountered before. I face anxiety every day and this is the biggest battle that people can’t actually see, because a lot of people suffer from anxiety and are fighting something silent.
“I’m fighting so hard against feelings, emotions, and traumas and I’m still waking up and getting over them.”
She went on to cite Ashley’s current assignment on Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins as an example because she said that while she would previously have ruled out something like this, she now feels she can really rise to the challenge.
She added: ‘When you face the biggest fears of your life and live through the scariest times, anything is now insignificant. I’ve experienced the greatest fear of my life, nothing comes close to that.
Tragic Loss: Carrying grief with you every day is heavy, the chains seem to be weighing you down. Until today, I found it difficult.”
Strength: ‘When you face the greatest fear of your life and live through the most dreadful time, anything is now insignificant. I’ve experienced the greatest fear of my life, nothing comes close to that”
For Children’s Cancer Awareness Month in September, Safiya once again partnered with jewelry brand Abbott Lyon to create a collection in honor of her daughter and to raise funds for the Azalea Foundation – This helps children with serious illnesses to obtain treatment that is not readily available in the NHS.
Sharing her pride in creating a special lion necklace and bracelet in memory of her young fighter, she said: ‘I’m so excited to make sure I’m involved in it all, I’ve worked with the interior design team.
From the delicacy of a little lion to ‘Let’s Go Hero’ is written on the back of the necklace. I want people to wear it with pride, I want people to know that 100% of proceeds will be donated.
Honor: The star created a collection in honor of her daughter and to raise funds for the Azaylia Foundation
Jameel: For Children’s Cancer Awareness Month in September, Safiya has once again partnered with jewelry brand Abbott Lyon.
“It’s a beautiful way to know that you are supporting all of the beautiful children who are battling cancer.”
Speaking about work and childhood cancer awareness, Safiya said, “I am really proud. I feel proud of my daughter, and I feel proud of the purpose and legacy that she has left me to continue as a mother.
To be able to be a voice for the voiceless and to really know that community that is suffering, to know that someone here has a platform to use in the purest way possible to scream from the rooftop on their behalf.
I am just proud to have so many people who are inspired by me and my daughter and follow our journey.
It makes them feel that they are not alone. The necklace is a symbol that you can wear to feel that you are not alone and that we are together in this.
Activist: Azaylia Foundation helps children with critical illnesses access treatment not readily available on the NHS